Have you ever had fat girl thinking? The thinking of that well I am already fat, whats the difference going to make if I work out or if I control what I am eating. Or the thinking that you are doing all of this and you can't see the difference in yourself so you lose the motivation you started out with? Well I think we have all been there at some point in time of our lives.

Well I have kind of been in a slump lately, letting all the daily things get me down, weight me down and I am always thinking, I don't have time to do this or that or I screw up on something small but I let it drag me down for a day or god forbid let me drag me down for a week then a month.

Ok ... its time to pull myself out of this rut. Slap myself silly .... com'on girl. Jump on the wagon again, lets do something about this. Stressing about it, worrying about it, talking about it isn't doing anything on that waist line.

This morning, it all kind of came and slapped me in the face. I couldn't find anything comfortable to wear, I woke up with no energy, I feel just BLAH about the day and about everything. But what did I do? I took the time to measure my food out, to make my own lunch and not allow my fat girl thinking to get me down in the dumps. By allowing this to do that, I am only harming myself and I don't want to do that anymore. I think it was good to have the hard reality kind of slap me in the face (even though I left the house pushing back the tears) ... I think it will help me in the long run.

Here is my journal for todays food:

B-Coffee w/ Creamer (need to cut out that creamer)

S-Almonds, Soy and Wasabi (I know .. not the greatest but I will go and get some natural almonds tonight)
Blueberries

L- 1/2 turkey sandwich
raspberries

S- string cheese
cherries

D- BBQ chicken
rice
corn on the cob


And I want to drink a ton of water today!